oops.

i feel kinda bad. i slept right up to 8o'clock. and missed my 8o'clock. but, i haven't been feeling physically well for about a week- so, i'm going to see the nurse today. right after all my classes. test in western civ today- ewww. so, i'm going to study for that for the next 20 minutes. maybe it's a good thing i didn't go to wellness today- more time for western civ.

thoughts concerning thoughts.

ok- so, i have this theory. actually, i have a couple.
theory number one
you have to be happy with yourself to be happy with other people.
looking at girls(and guys) who focus thier lives on being with someone- a "siginificant other"- and are so happy to be envolved with someone who thinks of them as "more than a friend"... it almost makes me sad to see them get hurt a week and 4 days later. NO. the "hole in your heart" will still be there when he(she, it) leaves. you moron. oh my goodness! are you people flippin stupid?!?! my answer: yes. these people are flippin stupid. you have to be happy with you first and foremost. and not pretending to be happy with you- genuinely happy. to be you, to be who you are, to be who you are as a christian. otherwise that hole... is just going to keep being empty-and it might even get bigger. so, stop digging the holes in your heart with the shovels of stupidity. and learn to be ok with you. search yourself- try yourself. if you find something you hate, change it(for the better of course). and until you can be truely ok with yourself, just leave the opposite sex alone.
theory number two
if you don't make an effort, it won't happen.
AHH! stupid people bother me. not-can't help it-stupid, but smart stupid. people who have every ability God granted to man(woman)- but don't use those abilities. people don't try to be happy. i think that's where i'm going with this. it bothers me that people make it a point to have a sucky life. sulking around as if to say- "have pitty for me, my life sucks more than yours"- but then complain about not being happy. i wake up every morning and say to myself: "today is going to be a god day wether you like it or not." it's as if i refuse to have a bad day. someone called me "little miss sunshine" yesterday, and i asked him why he called me that. he responded: "i've never seen you show any other emotion but happy emotions. even when you walk into a 9AM class when it's pouring down rain; you somehow have a smile on your face when everyone else looks so sad, and upset. i wish i could be that way, and not be so pessimistic all the time. you seem to have a bubble around you that just bursts with happiness. and that, is so cool." i smiled and just said "wow." i then told him what i tell myself everymorning. and that i too have my down days. but, when something goes "arye" i try not to let it drag me down the rest of the day. i mean, if something is constanly on my mind, yea, it's not going to be the best day- but i'll try my hardest to not let it drag me down too hard. so- i guess what i'm drivin at here is that you can't be negative all the time, and expect to be happy. be opptomistic. it's not as hard as it looks.

ok- so on a much lighter note- last night's game was the BEST GAME EVER! oh my goodness! 13 to 13 at the final buzzer, after like 202394762397 interceptions, and then came over time... INTERCEPTION! the best game! oh my! and of course i sat with some guys, and they thought my coaching was hilarious. they all cracked up when i started yelling at the players, and the coaches, and the refs. and then they stopped laughing when i turned around and looked at them... lol. then we all started yelling. it was great fun. oh my gosh! best game EVER!
well, today i'm finishing an art project, and working two shifts at telethon- so... barf-o-rama. not about the art thing, the telemarketing. haha. i'm a poet and didn't realize it... lol.
my "study date" yesterday was really fun. we didn't study, we are today though. yesterday we went out to sit on the grass and study under a tree(sub abore) and we talked for about 10 minutes before getting out our notes, and then we were reading notes, and just started talking. read notes. talked. read notes. talked. yea- that wasn't going very well. so- then we decided to forget studying and to just sit there and talk. then we went to dinner. and i left him in the caf. oops. no- i didn't reallyleave him there, he knew i was leaving. well, i met up with some other people after the game, and we went around just talking- and ended up in the harbin lobby. i was sitting there and april and jason were doing something else, and this guy had ordered a pizza, so we asked him for the number- and some how, that's how we started talking. so, i went to sit by him so we could talk, and after a while my phone rang- and it was SHAUN TEAGE! AHHHH! he's getting married! ewww! how weird! my heart jumped when he called me- it scared me... i didn't know what to say, i didn't want to talk to him... so, i asked jon(the guy i was talking to) if he wanted to go get his laundry(still in the dryer) and so, we walked out, and i said hi to a bunch of guys i knew walking into the dorm- and shan made some stupid comment, and being the smart-alec i am.. yea. that went well. so, i looked at jon, and said "he start talking to me really loud so he can hear you." and he did- and that gave me the excuse to GET OFF THE PHONE! eww... it made me want to yarf. AHHHH! i did not like that sam i am, i do not like his calling me ma'am. that was weird. but anyway- jon is really sweet. and he asked me to come hang out in the harbin lobby some more... so- yea. probably gonna do that. so, life is great.

trying again.

so- this is the second time i've try to post this... so it won't be as long this time.
ummmm....
college is awesome.
college is great.
i've even had a couple dates.
ok.
so, the retreat was awesome! it was amazing! i got to spend some time with some really cool people. ::cough brooks cough cough brett cough:: so- yea. brett is amazing. wow. good weekend. umm- the week has gone pretty good. and it's still going well. i get paid today. and that makes me happy! i got snail mail from momma phyllis, and got an e-mail from mom and daddy. so, i'm feelin good. i'm loving college. and it's great. two of my classes were canceld for today, and that made me UBER-happy! april moved in with us since lucy moved in with lupita since lupita's roommate didn't like her. so, we're all up here now, and it's wonderful! ummm... because i'm kinda ticked about the last post getting lost, this one isn't very long or detailed... i'll work on that.

HACKED OFF

i spent two days trying to type a really good update- and finished it this morning. went to publish it, and it DISAPEARED!
ANGRY ZEBRA PIRATES!

that was fun

just went to the movies with erin, april, and... mean boy! (matt). we had a good time. matt is really fun. kyle ended up not going, which i think in turn was a good thing. i would have been to... in the middle. and that would have been a smidge weird maybe... but, i had a lovely time- and so, i'll see matt again tomorrow in drawing/comp. so- yea. that's pretty much it at the moment on that subject.
as for life in generall , it's wonderful. i'm having a great time.

fun!

i love having wellness! and i love that april has wellness too! yesterday we swam for 30 minutes, and played basketball for 30 minutes. and tonight we swam for 45 minutes! it's so awesome! but i want a swim cap. and i can't find them anywhere here- so... yea. i'm still looking for one. thankfully i don't have much homework tonight though. i have to finish a little art homework, might ake me 12 minutes. and i need to read for western civ... YAY! western civ! joy. i have to be up really early in the morning though- so, yea... gotta be in the GAC at 8AM. but, tyler is in there with me, so it's not such a bore. might just be washin my hair tonight so i can sleep ina little later... yea. so, i think tomorrow night after april and i swim we're going to go to the fitness room and get on the treadmils or the cycles. i love to cycle. it makes me feel good, and burns lots-o-calories! i've actaully been trying to eat good(better) here on campus. i don't over eat in the caf. i eat enough, but i don't go crazy... if you catch my drift. well, i'm already dosing off, and i have quite a bit to do before bed. so for now, i'm done.

ok...

went to the episcipal church with erin and april this morning. going to the c.o.c. next week. watching moulin rouge, then going to lunch. also have to do a smidge of home work for tomorrow. gotta read for western civ., read for bible, and print something off and sign it for my wellness class. so- that won't take long. lucy went to church in little rock today- a bus came to get her i think. she went with dana, lupita("loopee"), and aziyadee(deedee). so, we don't know when she'll be back. she said this morning that it is the same kind of church she attends in honduras. kyle is getting back on campus sometime this afternoon- supposed to call me when he gets back, might go to college church with him tonight. and possibly go to the caf... depending on what time he gets back. erin, april and i are going to get some eats from there here in a little while. letting the 12 o'clock church crowds die down. the three of us, and who ever decides to go eat with us, usually show up the caf about an hour to an hour and a half after it opens. then there's barely anyone in there, no lines, and it's not as loud. AND on top of that, we can sit where ever we want, and be as loud as we want. OH, and we get a private concert! hahaha! i am the number one groupie of jordan and kensley! haha! we met them i think friday night, and they are awesome guitar players, so- we (erin, april, and i) are their groupies. they love to just ad-lib and make up stuff when they play. it is so awesome. and they also play some good cover stuff. poor kensley's foot may be broken! so sad! and he's a bigger guy and he's on crutches, and he hates it! i don't blame him at all though- i can't stand being on crutches! they make my armpits hurt! so, anyway- just small up-to-date on the past couple hours... more to come shortly.

oh yea...

yea, forgot to say: i had to use the corn bag tonight. first time. swollen ankle- hurts bad... and knee killing me, a little big. so- yea... cornbag=friend.

YAY!

THAT WAS SO FREAKING AMAZING!
the life house concert was AWESOME! who sat on the front row? lyn and erin did, that's right! then april found her way over! that's right- close up pictures! woo-hoo! i tok a whole roll of film... the waltons, the band- just stuff. so, yea, it was amazing. but now, i am amazingly tired. we had the concert choir ice cream social at dr.shaerin's house before dinner and the concert. then, came to the room- did some homework for tomorrow. so, now it's time to finish my homework and hop in the bed.
but before i do that...
kyle is a kyle. i didn't see him today. but i have my 1 o'clock with him tomorrow. ummm... i don't really know who he's like yet, haven't known him that long. so- we'll find out. i'm gonna go lay in my bed.and probably sleep in it too.

argh.... zebra pirates...

walmart is a demon of furry! i have to go to walmart... AGAIN!!!!!
argh.... the zebra pirates are attacking my underwear drawer!
i have no idea...
i'm rambleing.
and it's because i have to go to walmart... AGIAN.
argh.