lunch was great.my last day of freedom spent with best friend and really good friend who happens to be a boy. and arica... she's... no, not gonna judge, or talk about her.... ANYWAY

i almost feel bad, no i do feel bad about taking ryan to lunch, and he being the only guy, he says he doesn't care, but i hope he's not just trying to cover up the "caring".... he's just so wonderfull. he's such a gentleman, he opened doors, pulled out chairs, and even paid for lunch... isn't he great. i offered to pay, but no... he has to be wonderfull! lol... he's been at football camp all this past week, and that boy has scars like no other... last night at the Hickman county night out against crime, he was doing his boy scoutly thing. he had to make a very small model of a very large monkey bride, and he had rope burns really bad after going across the bridge, and he's so tough and manly around me, i really like that he's the mocho guy... and i really like that he's such a wonderfull guy... thank you Lord for Ryan.

well, with me starting school tomorrow, i have mixed feelings... i'm excited and then i'm like, nope, don't wanna go... but being in C.C. will help a lot of things hopefully. i've fixed the cracks in my manicure, re-done my toenails, gotten a hari cut, had my eyebrows waxed, and gone shopping for a cute outfit for the first and second day... and now, i'm just like, ok, just wanna know what my classes are, and then i wanna go home.. is that a crime, NO!

quote of the day:
"i can't stay, tomorrow i'll be on my way... so don't expect to find me sleeping in my bed, 'cause when you wake up, i won't be there..."
-simple plan

smell of the day:
Ryan
why: the boy smells good... i mean what can i say, he smelled really good the night of the military ball, and he smells good everytime i see him/smell him... lol... i can't really describe it other than good. especially today, after the total of around 4 hours we spent together today, i can't get his smell out of my nose, and i think it's a good thing... i like his smell... so come to church and smell ryan.. NO, please don't...

well... i guess i'll go be smitten some where else...

love puddles..............................................................